Memories Walkway

2011-10-05T23:29:00.001+08:00

2011-08-30T17:34:00.002+08:00

gosh! last updated was June 30!! HAHAHHAHA

ya really long huh hahaha

don ask me what's been going on for the past 4 months plus bcos i myself don remember too! LOL

ya am with a new company now Ravelusion Pte Ltd as a Business Development

well was not what within my line of industry but have been working with them for almost 2 months and i am pretty much loving it! hahah

it's a small company with only 3 of us in the office did i mention plus my boss there is only 3 of us? haha so it pretty nice and cosy of course with NO office politics AT ALL!!

that why i took up their offer straight when they offer me the offer! hahaha

just meet Farah for dinner after so long,

had a really good time & endless laugher too!

be strong gal, we'll walk through the real soon!

i've told u need some one to talk too or need a gd laughter i just a call away! haha

snd let'd go to greece!!!! hahaha finally found someone who appreciate my style of travelling! hahah

heading to bed ald, got to wk tml eerrhh

gd nite world, will try to update often!!!!

mucks~~~

2011-06-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

2011-06-03T10:35:00.000+08:00

Malta

2011-06-02T14:00:00.003+08:00

Happen to saw this country, Malta on TV yesterday and went online and do find out more about the country and gosh it was so beautiful!! hahah

Well it a island smaller than Singapore! Can't belive there a country smaller than Sinngapore other than the Vatican City haha

Hmmmm thinking of going there when things here are settle! hehe ya it confirmed, i am going to Malta!! =)

2011-05-15T15:11:00.003+08:00

such a lazy afternoon today hahah

went for the 11 o'clock mass and came back abt 12 plus

watch a little of TV than thinking maybe to come online a while bcos the sickening brother of mine use the com for so long last night! eeerrh so don really want to stay too long on the com lol well no plans today guess everyone is lazy like me to go anywhere hahah alright folks that all for now! have a lazy Sunday! =p

Good Morning!

2011-05-14T10:22:00.002+08:00

oh gosh, pretty much happening this few days haiz

well due to corporate ethics i wouldn't put in details here as what happening haha so yup that's it!

went K-Box with Jess yesterday and we sang from 11pm till 6am this morning! hahah it been so long that we went sing K together and we kinda like just the 2 of us going for K bcos we don need to pass the mic around! hahahhahaah really sang our lung off last evening and had breakfast and Mac before we head home.

Tell you a little secret both us were planning a little secret "project" as how we calls it for now hahahhaa well like i say it's secret so i wouldn't say anything till everything is confirmed and ready to go! It not a big issue anyway but for now..... come closer....... SHHHHHHHH! hahahahha

Have a great weekend ahead people! =)

2011-05-12T10:27:00.000+08:00

2011-05-11T08:18:00.002+08:00

try adding the name "Bernadette" in my facebook account but the i just can't seems to change it!

Errrh sickening!!!

2011-05-06T11:02:00.000+08:00

A new pastor was visiting in the homes of his parishioners.. At one house it seemed obvious that someone was at home, but no answer came to his repeated knocks at the door.
;
Therefore, he took out a business card and wrote 'Revelation 3:20' on the back of it and stuck it in the door.

When the offering was processed the following Sunday, he found that his card had been returned. Added to it was this cryptic message, 'Genesis 3:10..'

Reaching for his Bible to check out the citation, he broke up in gales of laughter. Revelation 3:20 begins 'Behold, I stand at the door and knock.' Genesis 3:10 reads, 'I heard your voice in the garden and I was afraid for I was naked.'

Remember when the funniest jokes were the clean ones? =p

2011-05-04T05:44:00.002+08:00

I have this weird dream 2 nights ago hahah and it is REAL lol

I actually dreamed that i am getting marry! In a church!! haha

Alright here how the dreams goes, will try to recall what i remember haha

I am in a nice church, not too big with many stairs.....

There wasn't a lot of guest though and i can't seems to see any of my family members!

All the bride's maid were in red, they looked really beautiful and i know all of them!

I was going around receiving blessing from the guests and so on....

hmmmmm after that i was walking down the stairs with my "husband" in the dream hahah with my bride's maid......

know what the best part? My "husband" was actually a Caucasian! hahaha

ya that about it lol

hahah interesting dream though lol

yup that all for now let see what weird i will have later than!

Ciao~~~~~

2011-05-02T00:23:00.003+08:00

Have this crazy ideal to just disappear from here and start a new life oversea! haha

Seriously have this ideal and some one told me it is workable (I wouldn't say who! haha)

Well let see about it so if one fine i really disappear in thin air, you guys know why huh whahahahahha

alright that all for now folks!

2011-05-01T13:56:00.003+08:00

Well the whole globe now is all on the Royal Wedding that was held on Friday haha well i watch the LIVE telecast of the wedding on Friday pretty sweet and of course it was so GRAND too hahaha

Congratulations to the future King and Queen! =)

it been so long!! hahah

2011-04-29T04:37:00.002+08:00

Gosh it been so long since i have came in here haha

Well i admit i am mainly lazy at time haha to type in here actually lol

And suddenly have the mood to type and so i am here haha

Any happenings? of course there is! =p

After so long, after a year of lesson i am finally baptized {as a catholic if case you are wondering haha} finally after so long was baptized on 23 April on a Easter vigil mass was so nervous and excited that day haha but i am really thankful that everything went well for the 16 of us that night. It was a really wonderful experience that i will remember for life! =) But the problem is i didn't told my family that i am getting baptized or rather i am baptized already hahah oh well let nature take it course and see how things goes.... =) oh ya i almost forget i took the name "Bernadette" as my catholic name hahe thinking should i add it into my NRIC and so the name will Bernadette Karen Lim K.L hahah cool? =p

Another issue with this big idiot wouldn't mention who and what happened since everything is over and i don see any reason to dwell onto it also, so let just move on some of you might know as i think i have told some of you, those who don will fill you in when we meet alright? haha

Been thinking of this issue for the past few days actually hmmmm being thinking of writing a will, ya you heard to it right a will hahah I mean come on we all have to die sooner or later so see this matter with an open mind and heart la. hahaha Why have this though suddenly? well partly is because after listening to Father Fred on one of his lesson about death and he strike me with this one sentence "be burden free and travel light" and that what trigger that thought. And also the face that i did not told my family that i've already been baptized to a Catholic so i also don want to have a complication at my funeral with which type of funeral they shall hold for me. haha So to prevent that from happening I will hand write 2 letters and hand to my godma and Adelene and if should one day something really happens to me, they will open the letter and do according to what is on the letter. It wouldn't be like those rich people that you see on TV like "20% of my money goes to who and who, 30% of my money goes to who and who" and all nonsense la hahah i am not that rich! lol I will indicate to hold my funeral in a Catholic way, which father to do my funeral and stuff like that, it a pretty simple one la. I don care if it is legal or what so ever at least i know godma and Adelene will get it done for me should anything happen to me one day hahaha

Ooh ya, elections coming!! hahah this is my first time joining in electing eh hahah well although i am not a fans of political but than for the sake of the country think i will go and do some read up and chose wisely hahah

alright folks that all for now, will try to come in often and update soon haha

Weekend is coming so have a awesome weekend ahead people! Love you all!!

Mucks!!! =)

2011-02-01T01:05:00.005+08:00

Well have been listening to this song and have been playing it over and over again and again hahhaa

Was watching the movie "The Chronicles Of Narnia:Voyage Of The Dawn Treader" when the movie end and this song attacts me and i have been hook onto this song since than hahah

nice music, touhing lyrics and amazing singer {Carrie Underwood} who sing this song so well!

well this song have been playing on and on for the past one hour hehe just love it....

here is the link to the video in Youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?annotation_id=annotation_398444&v=iCh-cLHJJjE&feature=iv

anyway the lyric is as follows:

There’s a place out there for us,
More than just a prayer or anything you've ever dreamed of.
So if you feel like giving up cause you don’t fit in
down here,
Fear is crashing in, close your eyes and take my hand.

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we
believe.
It’s written in the stars that shine above,
A world where you and I belong, where faith and love
will keep us strong,
Exactly who we are is just enough, there’s a place for us, there’s a
place for us.

When the water meets the sky,
Where your heart is free and hope comes back to life,
When these broken hands are whole again,
We will find what we’ve been waiting for,
We were made for so much more

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.
It’s written in the stars that shine above,
A world where you and I belong, where faith and love
will keep us strong,
Exactly who we are is just enough,
there’s a place for us, there’s a place for us
So hold on, hold on,
There’s a place for us
We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.
It’s written in the stars that shine above, a world where you and I
belong, where faith and love keep us strong, yeah exactly who we
are is just enough, there's a place for us.
A world where you and I belong, where faith and love
will keep us strong,
Exactly who we are is just enough, exactly who we are
is just enough,
There’s a place for us.

2011-01-28T16:45:00.002+08:00

WELL THE BELOW TEXT IS TAKEN FRM AN EMAIL SENT FRM ELIZABETH FINDS IT PRETTY MEANINGFUL AND THEREFORE DECIDED TO POST IT HERE =)

SPARE A MINUTE PLEASE

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BIBLE VERSE FOR THE DAY

"Call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall
glorify me."

(Psalm 50:15)

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OVERCOMING TEMPTATION

Alexander, a little boy, was trying to save all the money he could in order
to buy a baseball bat. But he had a hard struggle.One night when he was
saying his prayers, his mother heard him say fervently: "O Lord, please help
me save my money for a baseball bat. And, God, don't let the ice cream man
come down this street!"

Temptation often comes not at our strongest, but our weakest moments. When
we are at the limit of our patience, love, etc., we are tempted to be
un-Christian.

Listen to some good news today about temptation. It comes from Paul talking
to the believers in Corinth in 1 Corinthians 10:13. Paul says, "No
temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful;
He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are
tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it
(the temptation)."

Are you battling temptation today? Turn it over to God. You can't do it on
your own. You must ask for God's help. Psalm 50:15 says, "Call upon me in
the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me."

This is the most important thing in overcoming temptation. We cannot merely
use our willpower or courage. The temptation is stronger than we are, but
God is stronger than the temptation.

Will you be tempted? Yes you will always be tempted. Here is the question:
Will you resist the temptation by the power of God? Will you stand firm for
the Lord and say "no" to the strategy of the devil?

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There are Two Lies Satan Wants Us to Believe
1. Just once won't hurt.
2. Now that you have ruined your life, you are beyond God's use, and might
as well enjoy sinning.
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Experience, is a hard teacher,
Because she gives the test first
and the lesson afterwards.

2011-01-18T05:27:00.000+08:00

One stormy night many years ago, an elderly man and his wife entered the lobby of a small hotel in Philadelphia. Trying to get out of the rain, the couple approached the front desk hoping to get some shelter for the night.

"Could you possibly give us a room here?" the husband asked. The clerk, a friendly man with a winning smile, looked at the couple and explained that there were three conventions in town.

"All of our rooms are taken," the clerk said. "But I can't send a nice couple like you out into the rain at one o'clock in the morning. Would you perhaps be willing to sleep in my room? It's not exactly a suite, but it will be good enough to make you folks comfortable for the night."

When the couple declined, the young man pressed on. "Don't worry about me; I'll be just fine here in the office," the clerk told them. So the couple agreed.

As he paid his bill the next morning, the elderly man said to the clerk, "You are the kind of manager who should be the boss of the best hotel in the United States. Maybe someday I'll build one for you."

The clerk looked at them and smiled. The three of them had a good laugh.

As they drove away, the elderly couple agreed that the helpful clerk was indeed exceptional, as finding people who are both friendly and helpful isn't easy.

Two years passed. The clerk had almost forgotten the incident when he received a letter from the old man.
It recalled that stormy night and enclosed a round-trip ticket to New York, asking the clerk to pay them a visit.

The old man met him in New York, and led him to the corner of Fifth Avenue and 34th Street. He then pointed to a great new building there, a palace of reddish stone, with turrets and watchtowers thrusting up to the sky.

"That," said the older man, "is the hotel I have just built for you to manage."

"You must be joking," the young man said.

"I can assure you I am not," said the older man, a sly smile playing around his mouth.

The older man's name was William Waldorf Astor, and the magnificent structure was the original Waldorf-Astoria Hotel.

The young clerk who became its first manager was George C. Boldt. This young clerk never foresaw the turn of events that would lead him to become the manager of one of the world's most glamorous hotels.

"We are not to turn our backs on those who are in need, for we might be entertaining angels".

Life is more accurately measured by the lives you touch than the things you acquire..

2011-01-17T19:06:00.001+08:00

A guy wanted to live for 100 years.

One day he went to a doctor and he said: "Doc, I wanna live for 100 years."

The doc asked him: "Do you do drugs?" He said: "No".

"Do you go out clubbing?" He said: "No."

"Do you always get wasted?" "No". "Well, do you have sex a lot?" "No."

And the doc looked at him and asked: "WHY THE HELL U WANNA LIVE A 100 YEARS FOR?!"

2011-01-07T09:15:00.002+08:00

what going on?

i have been trying to get you since you call me on 29 Dec

but it keep diverting me the bloody voice mail! WHY?

"You have reach voice mail number......"

that what i got when ever i try to call you!

i am not pissed or anything

but you kinda make me worry right now

all i can do now is to keep calling till you pick up my call and not the

sickening voice mail operator!

pls darling call me soon alright haiz

or at least a text.....

oh boy..... ='(

2011-01-03T23:11:00.001+08:00

nothing much happening

really wann to go for a good long holiday and throw everything here behind my back...

so wann to go away...... errh

2011-01-01T14:53:00.002+08:00

Happy 2011!

oh boy it already 2011! time really files......

well hope that it will be a wonderful and blessed year for this year

been through a lots of up and down last year so hopefully this year will be a better yr

it raining now and no plans at all for today oh boy haha

well think just chill at home because i reckon every where will be crowded today

alright have a wonderful 2011 people! =)

2010-12-31T18:49:00.001+08:00

it the last day of the year today......

2010 is ending in the next few hours!

well don know where to go yet we will see how later

have a blast today guys!

will update again soon

=)

2010-12-26T22:37:00.003+08:00

Happy Boxing Day people!

well it a lazy day today really lazy

lazy to do anything today haha

haiz when will you be back baby, kinda miss you already =(

well tat all for now my brother need the com

update again than

:)

2010-12-25T10:00:00.002+08:00

Dashing through the snow, in a one-horse open sleigh
Over the fields we go, laughing all the way
Bells on bob-tails ring, making spirits bright
What fun it is to laugh and sing in a sleighing song tonight

Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh
Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh

A day or two ago, I thought I'd take a ride
And soon met Mr. Right, was seated by my side
The horse was lean and lank, misfortune seem a lock
We got into a drifted bank and then we kissed a lot

Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh
Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle, jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh

Jingle, jingle
Oh, jingle, jingle, jingle

Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle, jingle, jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh
Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle, jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh

Jingle, jingle
Jingle, jingle, jingle
Oh, jingle, jingle, jingle
In a one-horse open sleigh

MERRY X'MAS PPL! WELL WAS PLAYING THIS SONG SINCE MORNING AND THEREFORE DECIDED TO JUST POST THE LYRICS HERE HAHAHA

WELL IT A QUIET X'MAS FOR ME THIS YEAR NOTHING MUCH TO BE MENTION ABOUT HAHA

ATTENDED THE MIDNIGHT MASS LAST NIGHT OH BOY IT WAS SO PACKED THANK GOD I MANAGED TO

GET A SEAT! LOL

MMMMMM MIGHT BE GOING OUT LATER BUT WILL SEE HOW IT STILL EARLY NOW IT ONLY 10 PLUS IN THE MORNING! HAHA

WELL AM GOING BACK TO BED AGAIN AND SEE WHAT THE PLAN FOR THE AFTERNOON! HEHE

MERRY X'MAS PEOPLE! HAVE A BLESS AND GREAT CHRISTMAS!

PS: FEEL LIKE THROWING UP SINCE LAST NIGHT EERRHHH GUESS TOOK TOO MUCH TEA ALREADY, IT IS ALWAYS LIKE THAT WHEN I CONSUME TOO MUCH CAFFEINE ERRHHH

it's christmas eve..

2010-12-24T18:09:00.002+08:00

it Christmas eve today.......

Christmas eve is suppose to be a warm nice day to be spend with love ones...

but than it not the case for this time round...

he is out of town for x'mas so tat is not plans at all....

mmmmmm well will be going for the midnight mass later and i guess it is still

better than no plans at all i guess hahah

haiz.......

have a blessed X'mas eve ppl =)

love u!

it been a while

2010-12-21T06:58:00.003+08:00

boy,

it been a while since i have last came and post a post here hahah

well nothing much later actually

just don feel like mentioning some sickening issues

oh well the year is coming to and end in less than 2 weeks time,

how time files haha, time really files this year

mmmm ya was at Si jia's place last evening for our X'mas party and gift exchange and

it was after so long that we decided to have our own gift exchange!

the evening was filled with so much laughter and fun,

lots of food and gifts hehehe and Jess will be hosting the next year party

at her place hahah same date 20 December =)

well ladies really do hope you gals like those gift i LOVE my heheh

sometime i think to myself friends may come and go but i am really thankful

that i have kept this 4 amazing friends in my life well at least for the past 10

years.... and of course i am hoping to spend another endless 10 year with these

amazing awesome 4 wonderful ladies =)

eeeehhhh can't sleep last night

well have to get my ass to bed ald that all for now ppl!

will try to post in soon haha

2010-09-08T05:07:00.002+08:00

been restless lately

no mood for anything too

gosh just don like the current state of me....

what is going on?

need a big tight hug from some one and whisper to me that everything

will be just fine.......

really need that...........

2010-08-31T04:48:00.001+08:00

A married lady was expecting a birthday gift from her husband.

For many months she had admired a beautiful diamond ring in a showroom,
and knowing her husband could afford it, she told him that was all she wanted.

As her birthday approached, this lady awaited signs that her husband
had purchased the diamond ring.

Finally, on the morning of her birthday, her husband called her into his study.
Her husband told her how proud he was to have such a good wife, and told her how much he loved her..

He handed her a beautiful wrapped gift box.
Curious, the wife opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the wife's name embossed in gold.

Angrily, she raised her voice to her husband and said, 'With all your
money you give me a Bible?' And stormed out of the house, leaving her husband.
Many years passed and the lady was very successful in business.

She managed to settle for a more beautiful house and a wonderful family, but realized her ex-husband was very old, and thought perhaps she should go to visit him. She had not seen him for many years.

But before she could make arrangements, she received a telegram telling her that her ex-husband had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to her. She needed to come back immediately and take care of things.

When she arrived at her ex-husband's house, sudden sadness and regret filled her heart. She began to search through her ex-husband's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as she had left it years before.

With tears, she opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. Her
ex-husband had carefully underlined a verse,
Matt 7:11,

'And if you, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children,
how much more shall your Heavenly Father, who is in heaven,
give what is good to those who ask Him?'

As she read those words, a tiny package dropped from the back of
the Bible. It had a diamond ring, with her name engraved on it --
the same diamond ring which she saw at the showroom.

On the tag was the date of her birth, and the words. 'LUV U ALWAYS'.
How many times do we miss God's blessings, because they are not
packaged as we expected? I trust you enjoyed this.

Pass it on to others.

Do not spoil what you have, by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

IF YOUR GIFT IS NOT PACKAGED THE WAY YOU WANT IT,
IT'S BECAUSE IT IS BETTER PACKAGED THE WAY IT IS.

ALWAYS APPRECIATE LITTLE THINGS; THEY USUALLY LEAD YOU TO BIGGER & BETTER THINGS.

''The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.
They must be felt with the heart.''

HAVE A GREAT DAY

2010-08-31T04:43:00.000+08:00

2010-08-26T13:05:00.003+08:00

haiz, tired, restless, just don feel like doing anything today

things are all stacking up all over,

issue to be settle not settled

oh fuck hate it!!

and you damn!!!

when are you going to end this fucking prolong issue that i am dealing with you!!!

errhhh......

2010-08-25T12:23:00.003+08:00

hahahha i know might sounds like some silly young gal by saying this.....

but baby i never felt so pamper before! haha

=)

2010-07-07T04:18:00.002+08:00

i don a damn right now alright!

from your country to another and than back to ur country again!

what is hell is this!

goodness i really don know what one earth to do wz u now!

haiz things doesn't look good at home either

had a huge fight wz my parents oh gosh it is a freaking long story

if have to be told!!

seriously thought of moving out and my mum say

" the only time you move out is when u're marry!"

" if u move out now, u wouldn't see your mother when u are back!"

and i was like what the fuck!

forget it really don want to bitch about this here

had been coughing badly for the past few days oh gosh and it really suck!

fuck it la things just wasn't right for me

better hit the bed soon

good night ppl, love u all

=)

helpless and lonely

2010-06-15T04:17:00.002+08:00

helpless and lonely can be scary at times....

esp for the past month after all those fucking shit and nonsense that happened

on me made me really realise that helpless and lonely can really be scary....

perhaps after everything is over, those 2 devils will disappear too?

well i really hope so because i don really adore them! esp now!

so back off you two devils i have enough things on my mind now!

so stop coming to me! idiot!

2010-06-01T03:43:00.001+08:00

what is going on,

what on earth is holding up and causing all the delay

can we for fucking sake settle this once and for all!!!

so sick of everything

2010-05-28T07:17:00.002+08:00

i don know what the hell is holding you back there alright

i am so fucking sick and tired of all this already,

day after day, week after week and this case is not even closed yet

just what the hell is wrong??!!

do i look like a sucker here pumping in all i have and yet i still haven't

receive the things that i want!!??

i don care what is the fucking issue or problem now

all i want is you better get your ass to board the first or next available flight

to Singapore asap!!

the way u guys does things is absolute disgusting!!!

*#&$^%&!@#$%^(&)^)$*&@*#($)($&@^@*#)%^*$&@&!*

pls just want to settle this

2010-05-17T14:07:00.002+08:00

the 2 weeks sucks!

sucks to the max!

haiz, don want to put in words what is going on all i can say it the 2 weeks

was like the lowest point in my entire life!

it is worse than a roller coaster ride! ='(

i believe i can just pull through this,

I have to.....

can't admit defeat like that!

it not me and i can't take it lying down if i did that,

i can't.......

this is my last hope already......

really hope things can be work out.......

pray for me........

pls God, please bless me to pass through this hard ordeal....

please..........

2010-05-04T02:01:00.002+08:00

feeling very uneasy now...

i don know how to explain this kind of feeling....

maybe is because the issue is not settle yet after so much things happened...

i don know, i am like anxious, worry, panic a lot of mixture feelings in me now..

12 more hours, i hope by 3pm tomorrow everything is settle once and for all.....

please.......

i juet can't help but worry till everything is settle......

Dear God, i ask for your blessing to bless this issue to be settle by tml....

please........ gosh.... ='(

2010-05-02T06:18:00.003+08:00

it is Sunday today

3 more days to Tuesday and I really hopping nothing will goes wrong again....

this is the first time i find that the the weekends were so long to pass by...

really long.....

been checking my email every now & than to see if there is updates or what so ever,

but so far nothing, which i believe is a good thing

because no news means good news right? why?

because every time i recieved any email from the person it is always not

a positive email that why i am so scared to see him in inbox

when ever i log into my email.....

i really hope it is good news on Tuesday,

really hope so, 3 more days of aimless waiting and lots of worries.....

2010-05-01T05:42:00.002+08:00

things wasn't good...

i can't say and don want to say anything right here but i really hope by Tue

every with be settle.......

haiz, this have been dragging for too long already,

if the issue is not settle.......

i really can't imagine the consequences of everything,

so please Mr. Lim, i really hope by than everything will be settled

and I will be really grateful to you by than,

if not, things will turn really ugly at both of our sides.....

so let hope everything will be settle by Tuesday, shall we? Mr. Lim?

Please i just want things to get on track and i can move on freely

and breathe easily and perhaps live happily......

everything will be fine by Tuesday........
everything will be fine by Tuesday........
everything will be fine by Tuesday........
everything will be fine by Tuesday........
everything will be fine by Tuesday........
everything will be fine by Tuesday........
everything will be fine by Tuesday........
everything will be fine by Tuesday........
everything will be fine by Tuesday........

vexed!!

2010-04-26T03:12:00.002+08:00

vexed, vexed, vexed!!!

that what i am now!!!

it 3 plus in the morning and yet i can't get to slp!!!!!

haiz guess mind was filled with to much things...... gosh i hate it

eerrhhhh

damn!!!

!&@#*#(@!^@*#(@&!^#@(#)$*@^!&!!@&#$(

Tasting Life

2010-04-20T06:26:00.002+08:00

saw this quote online and find it pretty meaningful so decided to post it here... =)

well i couldn't find out who quote this quote haha

"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves... Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you will not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer"

anyway good morning people!!

it been a whille lol

2010-04-16T07:38:00.002+08:00

haha been a while since i came in huh haha

well nothing much to update anyway lol

things have been the same too

ai ya anyway nothing much to updates haha

got to go and shower now

have a appointment at Paya Lebar later at 11....

see ya people

have a awesome weekend ahead

ciao~~~

Gold Coast

2010-04-03T14:20:00.003+08:00

well just came back from Gold Coast

went to Haz and Raudha

had a awesome time there i must say

at least for the 6 days there we just threw everything back our mind and enjoy

but than happy moments always passes by very fast, 6 days were gone just like that...

sucks.... now back to reality everything back to square one....

haiz that life i guess.....

been checking on working at NZ or Australia so folks if you guys

know what are the protocol to work there let me know alright?

sick of everything here in Singapore!!

alright folks that all for now i guess

have a great Easter Week!! =p

2010-03-16T08:40:00.002+08:00

eerhh things wasn't going my way lately,

a lot of things happened just within a week!

gosh, so many nasty things just happened that i couldn't even breathe sometimes.....

just went to the hospital last week and my white blood cells is getting real low,

according to doctor he say now is the dangerous period and if gets lower and lower

now i have to make sure that i can't even cut myself.... goodness

i might have to stay in at the hospital for observations....

had done a lots of test last week, it was damn tiring.....

and damn expensive too la damn thos silly hospital bills and expensee la

haiz...... that only one thing the rest i wouldn't post here

well i ethics to uphold but what ever it is,

it all nasty things tat not worth mentioning!

seriously right now all i have in mind now was to make more money or have more money!

it really sucks.....

have to forgo Gold Coast..... =( and i feel so guilty towards Haz and Raudha.... ='(

i am really sorry gals....... other than that i really don know what to say to you gals........

i hate my current state i HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!!!!!

really need the strenght to help me pull through all those nonsense........

i really really needs it...........

2010 dosen't seems to be working right since Jan!!! goodness~~~

where are u~~~~~

2010-03-01T02:20:00.002+08:00

Wish to just dump everything here and run away, any where will do........

wish everything had never happened........

wish time can stop and freeze at those happy moments......

wish you were really the right one to step into my life......

wish i can do whatever i want in life without having to consider for the rest......

wish to really stable down now, right now.......

wish we could really walk the red carpet together.......

wish to be someone's one and only _ _ _ _ ..........

wish i am millionaire that and i could have done a lot of things.....

so many wishes and wishes, can they all come true.......

i don know.........

wish, wish, wish.......

that all i can do now, keep wishing other than that i really don know what i am supposed to do now.....

A couple heartbreak~~~

2010-01-29T02:11:00.001+08:00

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes.

When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.

The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all.

It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.

When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.

What do you think were the four words?

The husband just said "I Love You Darling"

The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life.

There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened.

No point in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know.

We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have.

Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

wow ir been a while.....lol

2009-11-27T06:37:00.002+08:00

hei it been a while hahahah

well nothing much happenings that why i never update lol

today is PH, Hari Raya

meeting my aunties for breakfast and than head to aunt Iris's place for

mahjong session hahaha

below is a part of email that Jeff that send to me so i decided to share it out here

here it goes:

Tail of Happiness

Once there was this kitten that was chasing its tail. It just chased it and chased. An older wiser cat came along and he watched this kitten. The cat watched the kitten for a long time. Then he asked the kitten, "Kitten, why do you chase your tail?" The kitten replied, "Because I will find happiness in my tail."

The old cat watched for a time longer then he said, "I, too, use to chase my tail because I thought I would find happiness there. But I realized that I didn't need to chase my tail for wherever I went it seemed to follow." And the old cat got up and walked away with his tail whishing behind.

alright people, that's all for now

and have a happy holiday and a long weekend!

Chao~~~~~

Michael Jackson; This is It is awesome!!

2009-11-11T04:15:00.002+08:00

went to watch Michel Jackson; This Is It movie with my brother at Jurong Point

yesterday evening and the movie was really awesome!!!

i guess that movie was the last moment of MJ's life as a supper star

as the King of Pop.......

well i don know how the rest feels when they watched the movie but for me i really

think it is awesome!

the part when he was singing "Earth Song" i was a bit teary......

and if he is still alive and This is It concert was held as per scheduled

i believe this concert will be the best concert held in the past decade or even more!

because just from the movie itself i can feel the powerful impact

so i can really imagine the scenario if the concert was really held,

but than again Michael can't do that already.....

i think that will be his regret,

and also to all his fans in the entire world loss

anyway catch the movie people, really i think it left with last 3 days only

so go watch it! =)

oh ya i sprained my back!! ouch and it was so freaking painful can!

it all happened last weekend when i help Aunt Iris move house than

i slept over at her place and play with Sky {that's her dog haha}

i think i played too wild with the dog

and i pulled my back so hard that i sprained it goodness

getting old already perhaps? hahah

alright folks that it for now got to hit the bed soon!

chao~~~ =)

Kama.... does it really happens?

2009-11-03T05:12:00.002+08:00

Kama.... does it really happens??

i don know.....

if it does than i think there's nothing i can do other than to accept it,

will what both of us had done in the past comes back to me and in some ways or rather?

i don know or care if you care this anot,

but for me i really do,

i can't imagine if my future boyfriend does the same things as you do,

i will go crazy,

knowing you was a disaster, getting involve with you was an terrible nightmare,

but than i can chose to avoid this disaster and nightmare in the first place,

but i didn't, i chose to sank deeply so deeply into you this "disaster"

so deeply that most of the time i couldn't pull myself off theses mess!!

and now i feel the pitch kinda too late i guess........

all i can say is...

"Karen, you ask for it period!"

i don want to have a guilty conscience anymore! i had enough of those!

i don know if i am free from the disaster or nightmare from now,

but so far so good, and i hope it will remains like this,

just remains like this....................

2009-11-02T05:02:00.002+08:00

i don know what the hell is wrong with me lately,

can't seems to sleep well,

like it 5 plus in the morning now and i am still can't sleep!

i am tired but when i am on the bed, my brain and eyes can't seems to sleep haiz

and this few days i have this "cramp" feeling on my chest,

i don know how to explain in words, but just feel very uncomfortable

and sometime i can feel my heartbeat is really fast.....

let see how for the next few days than see what to be done la

and know what i forget to drop off my cheque and bank had sent me a

reminding letter regarding my delay payment of the loan,

goodness how forgetful can i be!

alrigt got to try to force myself to bed now,

good night people

=)

rainy morning~~

2009-10-31T06:21:00.003+08:00

almost 6.30 in the morning now,

and it is raining cats and dogs out there,

pretty cold Saturday morning today haha

just turn 23 yesterday gosh feel so old eh haha

i never went out, haha surprise eh,

i am at home the whole day yesterday lol,

Mum brought a cake for me haha so have a simple mini celebration at home hehe

23 already eh hmmm well as the years goes by as i am getting older and older,

i am not really excited that my birthday is coming eh haha

don know eh don know if it is i am getting older or what so ever haha

but trust me, no matter how not excited you are,

but when you received SMS or people wrote their birthday wishes

on your facebook's wall, it feels really nice and warm haha

well quite a lot of things happened lately,

and each time every incident happened there's bounds to have conflict,

and when there is conflict, that's it!

for all you know you might just lost one friend or even more friends like that!

well sad to said but that really true! so ironic isn't it huh haha

i think that's life i guess,

and after all this nonsense incident happened,

it came to me that who is actually the true friends that will stand by your side

and be with you though the thick and thin together,

they will share the joy with me when i am happy,

the will share my sorrow with me when i am sad,

those who you used to think will be the one to stand with you though out

will just chuck you one side when you think the person will be with you,

and the last person that you expect will come to you

and walk though all the nonsense with you,

that how ironic life it!

so what happens now is, let it be,

what happened had happened,

no point looking over and keeps talking about it

because at the end of the day, nothing can be changed,

so just move forward and keeps walking!

some one told me this, a person might be financially bankrupt

but if the person hsve tons of solid amazing friends & family

that will stand by e person 2 go through thick & thin together,

the person would be a millionaire because no amount of money can buy you

kinship & friendship and i think i am "millionaire" because i have so many

wonderful and amazing people around me & I've nothing more to ask for already!

for those who were smiling and know what i am talking about

when you are reading this post yes

THIS POST WAS FOR YOU GUYS, YOU PEOPLE ARE JUST ANGELS SENT FROM HEAVEN

JUST SO AMAZING AND WONDERFUL,I COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE ALREADY, =)

on the other side if you are rolling your eyes while reading this post

please get off my fucking page, i don need you here

BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT WORTHY TO READ THIS POST AT ALL, IT IS AN INSULT TO IT!!

alright i am not being emo or what ever ok,

i think it just i couldn't sleep and a lot of stuff just kept coming into my mind

and therefore i will type this post, hahaha but i think it pretty true huh haha

so loser, you can just fuck off my life, i would not die without you here,

i think losers like you guys should really go and think what wrong with you guys,

if you still think you have nothing wrong,

trust me you will see your circle of friends getting smaller and smaller

or maybe you will not even realized it because you guys are just

too comfortable with the comfort zone that you guys are in right now?

as a saying said,

" BIRDS OF THE SAME FEATHER FLOCK TOGETHER!!"

i think that saying really fit you people like a T!

ok enough of wasting breathe on this worthless loser like you people,

not forgetting for those who text me, or facebook me their birthday wishes,

THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH REALLY!! I'LL KEEP YOU GUYS IN MY PRAYER

AND GOD WILL BLESS YOU ALL, I LOVE YOU ALL!!

2009-10-28T05:08:00.002+08:00

know what?

it 5 plus in the morning already and i am still bloody wide awake!!

goodness, i have finished counting all the stars, sheep and i still can't slp!

anyway i had a really bad sore throat today so have to push all my interview backward

feel so bad la, lucky the companies were all fine with it haha

meeting Bas and Julian later,

maybe going into the island, i think so haha

oh gosh i better stop now and go back to bed now,

i don care, i am going to start counting all the stars, sheep what ever la

really have to go to sleep now!! haiz.....

1,2,3,4,5........ whahahahaah

change my skin!

2009-10-26T04:51:00.002+08:00

well i couldn't sleep so decided to come online and see what i can do,

and i realized that i haven't changed my blog skin for a while haha

i love my current skin!! haha

just something puzzle me eh, the imeem song list that i post to my blog

all the music only plays for 30 seconds can any one tell me why?? haha

oh well anyway if you guys want the full music just click onto the link

" Richard Clayderman"

and it will bring you to immem home page of the whole list of his wonderful music!

goodness it almost 5am and i still can't sleep, something is terribly wrong with me!!

by right suppose to have an interview today, but than it was been push backward,

they are pushing backward till tomorrow,

but i have one interview tomorrow too, for the PR Manageress @ Naughty G Pte Ltd

don let your mind wonder off!! it is a decent company!! haha

well guess have to push to Wednesday hehe,

the one that i am suppose to go today one is for Project Assistant at i forget which company name haha

well my birthday is coming, 4 more days, so far no plans yet eh haha

cos some of you guys have already pre-celebrate with me already mah haha

gosh turning 23 already eh, time just files so fast la!!

this few days have been thinking over certain issue,

haiz it just to many to list down la,

just have been thinking over a lot of things haha well guess i am too free already!!

BUT i still want to work oversea! i am like dead serious!!

i am even thinking of taking up another language like Spanish, Italic or even

Russian, i know it sound ridiculous but i am thinking of getting a Degree in either

Spanish or Italic language.....

i know some of you have already advised me not to and point out the cons issue to me

but than i want to just let it go and give it a try.....

even if i didn't make it in the end, at least i can still tell myself

"oh well, you have try your best and that good enough!!"

but than i have find a school first that have such courses,

i guess i have to start from the scrap since i have no background

of the foreign language at all! hahha

what ever it is, i will see how it goes as i move on,

gosh it almost 5.30 already i better get my ass to bed now haha

meeting Ade for dinner later will update later again if i have the time

and if my brother is not using the laptop!

cao~~~~

good night people or rather good morning to some!! hahah

been so long

2009-10-06T04:45:00.002+08:00

wow goah been so long since i last came to my blog man hahaha

hmmm ya a couple of things happen during my "missing in action" period hahaha

first i have left Sentosa ald, well it have been alomost more than a month since i left them......

well no regret!! in fact was kind of relieved that i have left haha

my last day at work was so peaceful!! hahaha really

after that went for our sSweet ten year anniversary BBQ and chalet near IMM wz jess the gals and of course the guys haha

had so much fun that day, drinking session at the night, played some stupid game and whoever lost will have to drink the whole cup of drink,

Chi Tion, jess and myself drank hell lot!! hahah

anyway tat night was really fun!!

just finished doing a forum last,

it is a Russia Singapore Business Forum wz JTB,

the three days was freaking tired but it was damn fun too!!

oh ya i went for IL Divo's concert, they were awesome!! really awesome!!! finally get the chance to see them live

and witness their amazing awesome singing live!!

some idiot use my debit card number and went to use my card for some online shopping,

and tat idiot used up my entire money in my bank and left wz 44 buck!!

i was fucking pissed can!! have went and lodge a police report ald but than chances of me getting all my money back

was pretty slim....... and to make things worse,

the sickening phone of mine is giving me problem ald!!

i can't call/sms out!! i don know what the hell is wrong

guess will only have to call singtel and check wz them later =(

gosh freaking unlucky this few days eerhh,

well i want to get out of Singapore, really sick of everything and everything here

i want to work oversea, really seriously........

or work and study at the same time?

been sourcing for ways these few days, haha anyone out there have better suggestions hahaha

don care i think there should be a way out,

when there's a will, there a way!! hahaha

alright got to go now, my movie is really for watching hahaha

see ya

=)

back from Rome!!

2009-08-10T03:15:00.002+08:00

finally back from Rome,

gosh that was a really good 10 days break off work and everything man hahah

and i don know is it because of the time jet,

i can't slp now la!!! =(

so going through email and facebook lol

and when i was going through facebook and when i saw those pix we took at photo taking

or some other pix that was taken at work,

i was teary eh.... really........

because the only thing i can't with in SENTOSA is those wonderful and amazing people there......

gosh, i really don know how i will be feeling on my last working day..... ='

anyway i have tender to boss ald...... guess it time to move on,

hang in there Karen 2 more weeks only,

it will be over soon!

30 hours till board the plane!!

2009-07-26T17:44:00.000+08:00

my gosh,

i am so exicted!!!!

i am flying off tomorrow ald!!!!

flying off to Rome, after so so so long hahaha

tml flight at 2255hrs at Terminal 1, Air France!!!

well i am off to Bugis now to grab some last min stuff,

than go home start packing my laggage,

well have to meet up with rini tml to settle something,

and i have talked to boss ald,

gosh that was a long talk man,

oh well give him the reply when i come back la hahaha

cos now my heart and soul have all flew to Rome and Venice ald hahahah

=p

can't wait!!

2009-07-21T02:02:00.002+08:00

can't slp! and i am morning shift tomorrow la eerhhhh

meet bas and julina today have a long chat wz them,

and Juliana i am really excited about our plan that we talked over can!!! hahah really!!!

i really don mind to try and work it out, really hope it will be a succesful hehe

than meet up with Raudha to go travel agent haunting for our Venice trip,

BUT the agent quote us the rate was fucking expensive la,

$2000 plus, than after that we went to Mac and compare the price on the net with the travel agent price,

than we decided to to just maybe get the air tickets from the travel agent,

maybe RMG or price breaker than room maybe we'll book online haha

haiz my pay is not in yet la, so i am thinking of calling them up and see if we could book the tickets first,

than do the payment to them on 24 once my pay is in,

really hope it is possible lol =)

and please hope the bonus will be in too,

if not that is it..... ='(

alright Karen stop thinking on the bad side, haha

i am seriously counting down,

6 more days.....

6 more days to Venice!!!

woooo hooooo!!

2009-07-15T01:43:00.002+08:00

well have been checking onto the the info to Venice and stuff like that just now,

hehe ya was getting really excited now cos i will be in Venice like in 14 more days!!

although have book the air tickets and do the room reservations for the hotel rooms yet

bur most likely it will be confirmed, actually plan to go there after National Day,

but Wati is getting marry and our leave will crash with each other so therefore i bring forward the trip lol

just send an email to Raudha about the package i have found online just now and see what she say

once she is ok wz it, than think we'll book the them asap ald!!! haha

14 more days!!! my gosh can't wait!!

hope by the time i come back my motivation to go back to work will be higher if not.....

haiz guess no point staying any longer than, we'll see how than

but now is to just plan for my Venice trip and make sure we've a wonderful time there!!

alright got to go to sleep now,

still have to go back to the island for some dry run for some new launch guided tour,

haiz my off day bur i don have a choice do i?? haiz....

good nigh folks!

=p

i love you, meed you, miss you, want you

2009-06-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
I love you more as each moment passes us by.
I love you more with every breath I take.
I love you more with each promise we make.

I need you like a flower needs the rain.
I need you for you can wash away my pain.
I need you more each day
I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way.

I miss you more than ever now.
I miss you because I really need you somehow.
I miss you and your touch.
I miss you for to me, you mean so much.

I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.
I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.
I want you to hold me close to your heart.
I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you, and want you
And I have for every single moment, right from the start.

i love you, meed you, miss you, want you......

haiz

2009-06-22T00:31:00.003+08:00

haiz know what i think i left my phone on a cab! ='(

i was trying to find my phone when i was about to go back just now

and realized, shit where is it?!

so i think i left it on a cab and the best thing,

i can't even recall which cab i had board on in the morning!!

pray for the best than,

well i msg him said i dropped my phone,

well i guess i needed to vent out my unhappiness at that point of time, haiz

can only blame myself for being so careless lol!

had ice cream session with the ladies after work today

quite budget la so we all went mac instead haha

most of us all waiting for pay la

syila suggest a ladies night out on 29 June,

and i suggest The Clinic Bar,

i went there once, it pretty cool

so really hope all the ladies at work could just come

and have our ladies night hahaha

yes yes i almost forget II Divo is coming to Singapore!!!

in September!!! gosh i am so going to attend their concert la!!

i missed them once, hell no i am going to miss them again!! haha

any one interested, 21 Sep @ Indoor Stadium?? haha

alright very sleepy got to hit the bed soon,

good night!

waiting to go home

2009-06-20T22:27:00.002+08:00

it 2230hrs now,

waiting to go back lo

just went down to assist at Songs hahaha i know AFTER FOR SO LONG!!!! haha

i think the last time i went down was last year Hari Raya i guesse hehe

cos there so VIP visit so go down and assist in blocking the seats lol

alright they are up!!!

going off ald, see later got mood to update anot....

on morning shift tml goodness!!

alright got to gon ppl

take a peep here before going to bed

2009-06-20T00:45:00.002+08:00

well thought of taking a peep here before going to bed hehe

no happening things/event happened lately

so not really much updates

thinking of going a short weekend get aways with some of the ladies to Batam

next month, well i am still going if not many people is going even if it alone

cos i think i really need a break

i am thinking should i ask him along well see how la,

oh ya i get damn pissed of wz DBS Bank because of my Debit card,

the stupid card can't make any transaction and i can't even draw

the freaking cash at the ATM and when i call the hotline

all they know is transfer me over and over again

it damn irritating can, in the end i have to made my way down to the freaking

bank to settle the issue!

what ever la,

alright going to hit the bed soon,

working pm shift tomorrow,

good night!

=)

2009-06-17T01:08:00.002+08:00

phew had a long day today....

i am just too lazy to type it out,

but anyway thank god u are ok dad =)

damn tired going to hit the bed soon,

PS:kinda of missing u lately...... oh gosh, i shouldn't be feeling this way la =(

bored!``

2009-06-15T20:52:00.002+08:00

off today, was so bored today la! =(

have no plans at all,

msg him in the afternoon i just text " i am bored.." haha

well actually thought of meeting him, but than he got to run after 6

so no point meeting him lo :(

this few days been trying to meet each other but than always our timing don seems

to match each other timing haiz what to do

so who call you are such a busy man my dear haha

oh well arranger again lol

was looking for jobs online just now,

ya pretty sickening/disappointed so far no jobs that interest me

or i had eye on.... :(

but than i am thinking of going back to further my studies,

but yet to find the schools and stuff like that
d
go school also must have the money to pay the fee mah

haiz don know la, take a step at a time and see how la

alright think i better go and find the schools online ald,

:)

i am back!

2009-06-03T22:39:00.002+08:00

gosh i just realised my last updates was 12 April!!

more than a month man......

hmmmm well for the past month mah, well how to say.....

well like taking a mild roster coaster ride a bit of up and down oh well what's new,

don know la, really feel like shit lately

quite handful of things happened,

the load/responsibility/duties on my shoulder seems to get heavier and heavier,

sometimes really find it hard to "breath",

seems to be like gasping for "air" most of the time,

work wise, well to be frank my morale is kinda of damn low now,

don ask me why,

just don feel like going to work, i have been dragging my ass off to work lately,

and i know that is definitely is not a good sign......

in my previous work places, once i am dragging my ass to work,

i will prepare my resignation letter already, than i just tender......

but here, i really don know,

i guess is the environment/people that is holding me back,

maybe i guess......

don know la, guess when it the time to move on,

we or i have to move on,

so i think i am just waiting for the right time to move on?

i really feel like dumping all those freaking, horrible, bloody, sickening nonsense

behind my back and just walk off like that,

i am so sick of seeing, hearing, facing, handling them every now and than

screwed everything/everyone!!

i just wann to be myself from now,

please don come and tell me i have been quiet or what ever,

i can't possible be noisy all along, i need a break too!

and those who have gave me advise or talk me,

trust me i absorb all of our conversation in,

all into my mind and heart, really people..... =)

i wann to go holiday! so badly...... =(

guess should be going during Auguest or September

i am thinking of going to Venice, Italy or maybe Rome,

but that i IL Divo is to have their world tour concert at Aust....

so i really don know where to go now haha

well let see how's budget is like first hahah

and yes i have not started saving a shit yet!

BUT no matter what i am so going to make sure that i am out of this

sickening horrible place by than haiz

meeting jess, yvonne and the gals on this sat.....

guess that the only thing i am looking forward to for this week than,

pathetic eh haiz

off 2 days, yesterday and today,

yesterday whole day rot at home never really went out or whatever,

today mah, well i went to watch "Angels and Demons" alone at Jurong Point at 2pm

that movie was damn nice, really i really don mind watching it again!

well i plan was after the movie go to coffee bean or what ever and

go through my guided tour script BUT.....

than after that go roam around Jurong Point as i haven't been

doing that for a while, hehe

brought a tube dress at This Fashion,

a pair of heel at Shawn, the original price was $110 but i get it at $32.90! good buy huh haha

than some junk things and i spent like almost 100 bucks! haha

ooh well that why i said don leave me alone at shopping centre hahah

and ya i did not even touch my script la it was all along in my bag!

haiz i really don know how to pass like that la,

can i just don take it? can i? our dearest sups?? haha

forget it as if they will allow lei??!!!

alright got to go, tomorrow still got to work haiz back to work again....

oh ya, Reben is back to Singapore already and guess he will be staying put

this time round, what ever it is i am cool with it,

cos i know all those dramn wouldn't happened again.

see ya folks good night!

Christmas Shoes

2009-04-12T21:15:00.001+08:00

touching video i also happened to view this video on youtube.....

here the lyric

It was almost Christmas time
There I stood in another line
Trying to buy that last gift or two
I'm really in the Christmas mood
Standing right in front of me
Was a little boy waiting anxiously
Pacing around like little boys do
And in his hands he held
A pair of shoes

And his clothes were worn and old
He was dirty from head to toe
And when it came his time to pay
I couldn't believe what I heard him say

Sir I wanna buy these shoes for my Momma please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry Sir?
Daddy says there's not much time
You see, she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes will make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful
If Momma meets Jesus, tonight.

They counted pennies for what seem like years
And cashier says son there's not enough here
He searches is pockets franticly
And he turned and he looked at me
And he said Momma made Christmas good at our house
Most years she just did without
Tell me Sir
What am I gonna do?
Some how I've got to buy her these Christmas shoes

So I layed the money down
I just had to help him out
And I'll never forget
The look on his face
When he said Mamma's gonna look so great.

Sir I wanna buy these shoes, for my Momma please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry Sir?
Daddy says there's not much time
You see, she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes will make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful,
If Momma meets Jesus tonight.

I knew I caught a glimpse of heavens love as he thanked me and ran out.
I know that God had sent that little boy to remind me
What Christmas is all about

Sir I wanna buy these shoes for my Momma please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry Sir?
Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes will make her smile
And I want her to look beautiful
If Mamma meets Jesus tonight

I want her to look beautiful
If Mamma meets Jesus tonight

bleeding. bleeding, bleeding

2009-03-27T19:26:00.003+08:00

supposed to be working morning shift today,

but haiz my nose bleed again,

it have been bleeding since this morning la,

bit by bit until now....

so can't make it to work today,

tried calling Duty Phone in the morning but for some reason, it was diverted to voice mail,

so i dropped an SMS to Kana to inform him that i wouldn't be coming to work,

well guess Kana did not saw the SMS or what ever,

he thought i AWOL! goodness..... ='(

lucky i called Kana at about 4 plus to tell him about some contractors coming in to do night work later,

than he told me what happen, goodness....

than zilin called me also, she say when she went to the office and when she asked when am i,

everyone of them told her i did not turn up for work, i AWOL!!

my gosh, I DID NOT AWOL, BLOODY HELL! ='(

anyway seen a doctor just now already thank goodness, this time round no need to take jabs,

just take medicine will do, phew.....

but that it cost me $40/- on consultation and the medicine gosh it freaking expensive can!

this month pay is peanut! because the minus off the advance pay for CNY period,

haiz now i am still thinking of how to split my pay properly,

still have to save aside for Aust. in August and staff like that,

really have to work out my fiances properly what more my this month pay is bloody peanut!

haiz oh well, no choice want to go traveling than have to save up now lol

hahaha

anyway BBQ tml........

yes finally hahah

hope my nose bleeding will stop by than,

alright folks, got to go now,

time to take medicine.... ='(

PS: Zilin say want go Jurong Point to shop, sorry gal another day can.......

lazy...

2009-03-15T18:19:00.002+08:00

time check 1820hrs,

was on morning shift today,

and here i am change out of my uniform already,

but i am very usual to go home or any where.....

just very lazy.....

my player and phone was beside me charging,

well i really can't do without the 2 of them,

i just can't leave my place without neither one haha

ooh well D&D coming up,

and i have got no freaking ideal what on earth to wear!

not any freaking ideal, really.....

and i don even feel like going la gosh.... =(

off tomorrow, hmmm no plan yet

but thinking of going to far east and see if i can get any costume for

my D&D, than maybe head to Tanjong Beach after that too meet {oh well i don need to write down who and you don need to know either! haha}

ya think that should be the plan, well i got this feeling,

the first part of the plans will be screwed because most likely i will sleep in,

or in fact, I WILL sleep in! hahah

oh ya we see how la heheh

gosh, i am lazy to go any where.......

PS: i am not going to NZ in August, change place to Aust. ald hahah

well can't really afford the flight ticket to NZ, so go Aust. first,

NZ next year, i promise.... hehehe

as usual updates...

2009-02-19T00:56:00.003+08:00

wow been a while since i last update huh haha

anyway nothing interesting things happend lately,

work wise mah, haiz how to say,

been a bit tense up lately la, i must admint,

don know is it the passion is not there anymore or what

just you know, every day to me was only like going to work and that all,

and some time i realized that i need to drag myself off the bed to work,

i don know from when it started,

some where last week i guess?

haiz really don know if that was a good sign anot.... =(

alright enough of work,

ooh ya, i had deleted him from my Facebook and Friendster,

well guess it is really time to do something, and i guess that the basic one that

i should start first is to take him off there haha

haiz i had enough already, game over! it's really game over!

really time to move on, the amount of time i spent on you is enough,

it really enough!

and also i had made my Friendster profile private, so that only my friends can view my profile, haha

seriously, i can't wait for August to come haha

gosh got to get air ticket when this month pay come in, or latest next month haha

depend of the amount of money that i see when pay comes in hehe

after that have next month or April have to book for hotel stay already,

i want to get a laptop eh..... but need time to save money lei,

and few days ago, i saw the one laptop i forget where already,

it quite small, A4 size i guess, and it look damn cool la,

it cost about $889 i think it quite worth it eh haha

very tempted to get it lol, but that now top pitority is to settle all my Auckland trip first, air ticket, hotel room, and expenses first,

once everything is settled than go for laptop, hehe

oh ya i have sent my request for winter coat online and a few of them replied me ald,

BUT the stupid hotmail seems to have some problem, i can't view my message!!

and i can't replied them, damn shouldn't have gave my hotmail address,

haiz should have given them my gmail or even yahoo address la!

21 MDIS open house, think of going there and take a look at their courses there,

and ya just a out of no where dream or goal that i set for myself,

when i was on my bed few days ago,

i want to have my own marriage event shop when i turn 30,

i am 22 this year, so 8 year for me to go and achieve this goal, haha

i am really trying, really really hope that will really happen! haha

wish me luck people!

ya anyway that what is going on in me for the few week,

nothing interesting la hahaha

alright got to get my ass into bed now haha

working later,

good night folks!

lazy, lazy, lazy haha

2009-02-08T18:57:00.002+08:00

almost 7pm now,

by right i should know off by now,

but by left i am still in the bunker,

don feel like changing so bloody lazy now la

=(

i brought my cam today,

thought of going to take the pictures of those flowers from Sentosa Flower

today after work, but than very lazy la hahah

but if i don take now, few more days,

those flowers will either be gone and winter already eh! hahaha

anyway, i have been watching hell lots of movies lately,

inkheart, underworld (twice), changelink, doubts, and few more which i can't really recall hahah

changelink is nice, highly recommend haha i was a bit teary while watching the show hehe

bun told me that my happy aura was not back yet,

ooh well, i know they have not came back yet too, hahah

haiz, maybe after a while when they are tired of running outside,

they'll come back to me? hahah

ok ok here i goes, talking nonsense again haha

enough, enough karen,

i should get my ass out of here and get change and go and take pictures of those

colourful, beautiful flowers out there haha

i believe i will still on the island for a while,

maybe can update again after all those pictures taking ? haha

=)

waiting for time to pass by

2009-02-01T22:06:00.002+08:00

2110hrs now, waititng for for Alvin than left the office together,

finally today is the last day for SENTOSA FLOWER!!!

finally back to normal operations from tomorrow onwards,

no more Reserve Unit etc etc, everything back to normal haha

as for me, i am off tomorrow, oh well as usual no plan yet hehe

maybe sleep in late i guess haha

ooh ya was having bitching session with Ade and Syila over lunch yesterday,

and Ade was so pissed with Mr. Pig {hahah let just name him Mr. Pig alright, come on i am not a bitch, i wouldn't say who is he in my blog la haah}

reason why she is so pissed with Mr. Pig? it all just because she got a boyfriend and Mr. Pig was throwing plastic, cold remarks on her, and she was cursing and swearing AND at the same time having her lunch! haha

well i am not going tp type the bloody whole story in, too lazy la haha

and than after she hang up the call, you know we begin the topic already hehe

syila asked Irfan, Richard and Gautha views, well we know men's points of view mah haha

and the three of them, their view is more or less the same, so in the end we just end it off that the Mr. Pig is a fucker, a MCP, and a sore losser who can't take it when the lady that he were once so close with, is seeing another man now! haha

and from Ade's case yesterday made me seen through certain things,

i am so not going to be like that Mr. Pig, in fact i think i am graious than him!

and i had already decided to just release off everything regarding him off my hands,

everything of him! i guess i have been very persistent on you already,

guess it time to end this game that we should even had started in the first place!

haha and Syila's song came to my mind now

F-U-C-K- Y-O-U DO DA DO DA
F-U-C-K- Y-O-U DO DA DO DA
F-U-C-K- Y-O-U DO DA DO DA

HAHAAH

ya that for you, the biggest jerk!

lost sat.....

2009-02-01T01:00:00.002+08:00

feeling so hoplessly lost today,

don feel like doing anything,

don feel like going home so early either,

just don feel like doing anything eh,

well don know if it a good sign anot haha

alright got to pack up and go back home haha

i am not at who ever place la,

just that i wouldn't revert where i am now on the blog hehe

good night people

:)

sleepy, tired, eerhh

2009-01-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

so freaking strained out now,

had fire drill in the morning

reach the freaking at about 7am!

and i was pm today la,

goodness, well thought tomorrow off so not that bad,

but kana is not feeling well today,

so i change my off day with,

so tomorrow i'll be covering his morning shift and Friday i'll be off

and i haven't even start doing or preparing anything for CNY!

oh well see how, if have time than go and buy those stuff,

if not than too bad i guess hahaah

i so so so tired, really can just dropped dead anytime man hehe

alright got to go and change and get my ass out of the office,

see ya!

:)

tired month...

2009-01-13T21:23:00.004+08:00

been so freaking tired this few days,

only had been catching like 2-3 hours of sleep per day,

cos, i thought January will be a peaceful month this month,

as in nothing much happening as it was the first month of the year,

but i was wrong!

terribly wrong!

09 Jan had some super VIP visit which made of us busy like no body business,

reach the island at 0545hrs!

yes 0545hrs! can you believe it

have to open the museum by 0745hrs and get stand by for the VIP to come in,

fine, that's not all,

today, 13 Jan have merlion fire drill!

and later in that day afternoon, VIP visit again!

gosh....

same thing reach the island like 6 plus in the morning,

and to make things worse,

have to go to cove to attend a event held by volvo ocean race,

and after that event, all of us,

myself, amir, ad, hafizah was supper strained out after that!

really really strained out!!!

as i thought alright tomorrow will be a "normal" day,

but no, there is some power shut down tonight,

and tomorrow i have to be here early to do opening!!

because certain zone will sure screwed up because of the shut down.

i was like, "what the fuck!?"

when ant called me and informed me about this at 1745hrs when i was still at cove!!!

i was really like "what the fuck?!"

and if i am not in uniform, all my wonderful blessing will be out!

that's not all, my own fire drill is coming up on 21 Jan!

goodness, 2 drills in a month is really enough to kill,

well maybe not to us, but to me!

i have been seeing things that i really don want to see lately,

pictures speaks louder than words,

at first i do feel a bit upset, but it just for a while,

well really wonder if it is a good thing or a bad thing

and guess i really don have any right to get angry or what ever,

because i know we're nothing....

yes nothing.....

i had been very persistent enough, haven't i??!!!

enough is enough.

a woman's youth is perious, i can't be forever young

and i seriously don feel like wasting my time like that anymore!

sometime you really made feel like dirt,

which sometimes i really think that dirt is more costly than me!

i am starting to release my hand off you,

bit by bit,

day by day,

and i strongly hope/believe that one day,

i can treat you like dirt,

like how you treat me!

i am just waiting for that day to come,

to let you have your taste of your own evil medicine!

no plans!!! no plans!!!

2008-12-31T21:55:00.004+08:00

it 31st December today,

last day of 2008,

and know what i have no freaking plans tonight at all!!! ROAR.....

EERH ya no freaking plans at all,

i don wann to go Siloso Beach Party

because i have been there for the past 2 years ald,

so was kind of sick and tired of beach party,

plus the previous Zouk out was such a disappointment!

so the More i wouldn't go to any beach party now hehehe

oh gosh, even my last hope was gone man,

he is bloody working la,

and i am really stuck on the island don know where the hell am i supposed to do!

come on,

well maybe later go esplanade and wonder alone ba,

better than here doing nothing alone i supposed

oh well, i will find my own programmes

happy new year ppl!

:)

not a merry christmas neither a happy new year...

2008-12-25T19:42:00.002+08:00

gosh, how should i start....

well been through hell lot of shit incident or people lately,

don like it, spolit all my mood for christmas or any every thing for the festival season!

not going to put down all those fucking awful things that is in my mind now,

which some i still refused to go and even think about it man!

family, financial, sickening men, health just came to me all in one slot,

which i don even have enough time to react what the hell happended!

trust me, i hate to say these but this seems to be a fact,

happiness things will only come to you once in a BLUE MOON,

sorrow things will always happended to you one after another!

i am not being emo alright,

in fact i still have to act as if nothing happended at work,

and to entertain those kids at work to make them believe that i am doing cool,

making them believe that i am still able to focus well on my work,

BUT IN FACT I AM AH, WHEN IT COMES TO WORK, I DON THINK WHICH PART OF ME IS NOT GIVING IN THE BEST SHOT!

i seriously don like that, just find myself look like a clown every day,

it just like i have to wear a mask everytime,

wear a different one to face different people

screwd everything la, hate to have so many god damn bloody thinks in my mind now,

really really very tiring~~~~~ :(

very tiring~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :(

alright people don ask me where to go for countdown, clubbing etc,

cos i seriously don think i'll have the mood for all those above mention stuffs...

really don have any mood for all those eh,

maybe if i have a sudden urge to go count-down or clubbing,

i'll let you guys know alright?

and know what this year Christmas was the first Christmas that i have spent alone!

plus so ramdonly just meet up with anissa, syila, stanley, bun bun, halim, amir, Glady, Mut at harbour front!

oh well better than nothing i suspposed, better than alone ba

oh well ya that how i spend my Christmas, it's the most plain, boring Christmas ever in my life!

but guess that's better than nothing!

goodness look like really have to look for permate boyfriend already,

it been a whie since i was in a relationship with a man,

think should get into one already huh? haha

hei, any men out there heard me! hahaha

alright ppl, that's all for now,

i am very lazy to type so many things la,

will updates if i have the mood haha

c ya people,

merry x'mas people......

merry x'mas karen :'(

another sleepless night :(

2008-12-16T03:28:00.002+08:00

time check: 0325hrs!

goodness, what am i still doing here at this hour!!

eerh as usual,

can't get to sleep again, haiz

i was already on my bed at abt 11 plus,

than been tossing and turning till 1 plus

can't sleep and than so pissed off than decided to get up and watch some tv programmes,

BUT there wasn't any nice programmes at this hour mah!!

switched off thr damn tv and here i am trying to find something to entertain me lol

and i am morning shift tomorrow eh!

gosh i hate this

i hate sleepless night!
i hate sleepless night!
i hate sleepless night!
i hate sleepless night!
i hate sleepless night!
i hate sleepless night!
i hate sleepless night!
i hate sleepless night!

:)

2008-12-15T00:11:00.002+08:00

not working today and tomorrow hahaha

yes!! finally :)

well went Zouk Out last night and know what it sucks!

i don really like it!

the music was boring, although at the front part they do had really

cool music but as the night went past,

gosh that's it hahah

ooh well guess i wouldn't be going again because it really not worth the money haha

goodness, know what? when i was queening up with bun bun last night,

i saw his ex-girlfriend there ya ya i know

what a small world,

today is zilin birthday,

happy 20th birthday darling!!

haven't been messaging him for a while already

hmmmmm hope he is doing good, i hope so......

well 2008 is ending in 2 weeks time,

time really files man, suddenly feel so old la haha

ooh well,

i already had in mind to get a hotel room on 28 this month for 2 night

because 28 i going to either Cafe Del ma or Homes with my hotel gin gang,

29 i have end of the year party at Sentosa, than very lazy to go back home

and come out eh, must as well get a room and stay there la,

hmmmm as for him mah, well will message him

if he want to pop by, i'll welcome him,

if not never mind lol, hahah

kinda of getting used to all his behaviour already i supposed hahha

alright ppl, that all for now

pix ill try to upload to facebook asap hahah

c ya around!

many misses =(

2008-12-10T16:09:00.001+08:00

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updates before work =)

2008-12-07T11:33:00.002+08:00

it 1135hrs now,

starting work at 1200hrs,

well the reason why i am here at the bunkers so god damn early was because i took a cab to work haha

that's y,

because i seriously don feel like taking the train or bus,

very lethargic today,

don know is it because of the medication or what ever,

just very lethargic haiz i hate it!

body and health have been giving red lights signals lately,

nose bleeding, lower back pain etc etc

oh gosh............

ooh well maybe i am dying soon who knows hahaha

ppl come early for my funeral ok?? hahaha

alright alright stop the crap Karen hahaha

well got to get ready for work now,

update later ppl,

ooh ya, his play is starting today,

all the best darling,

today tickets sales seem rather good =)

hope it will maintain the same for the 4 days alright?

have a good show,

i think i'll go for the third day one than, =)

updates....

2008-11-29T21:12:00.003+08:00

date check: 29 November 2008

goodness, been a while since i last update man hahaha

ooh well, i can't really recall what ever happened for the past few days or weeks already man hahaha

ooh come on, i really had very STM eh hahaha

anyway watch movie with bun bun last night at PS,

forget the title hahaha

but it about dog though =)

after that have coffee at TCC,

chat, bitch a while.....

come on, that what gals will always do when they are together mah hahah

after meet him some where at Bugis, ya after sooo long i know

today nothing much happening also

hmmm had a meeting this afternoon

meeting about the end of the year party for next month,

well the theme is high school night,

pretty interesting,

just now, me, Syila, Ad and Saihah were watching fire works outside Bunkers from Vivo City,

well think it some x'mas event and that why they have the fire works,

though trees were blocking our view but than we can still see the fire work very clearly, haiz guess better than nothing

haha too bad we were working so can only see fire works in such way... LOL hahah

ant called, say wann to watch movie again, this time round 4 christmess

2315hrs show, drag syila along

and guess what, tml both of us were morning shift,

hahah good luck to the both of us man

ooh ya,

I HAVE FINALLY BROUGHT MY OWN DIGITAL CAM!!! HAHAHAH

event, functions, wedding and many more all in a row!!

2008-11-20T14:04:00.005+08:00

wow been a while since i last update man haha

well just attend Basanti and Julian wedding on mon,

had tons of fun,

pix mah all at facebook,

upload by zilin, anissa and many more

oh well it end of the year ald got a handful of events and functions to attend,

end of this month is Janet and Jason's wedding well don know if attending,

than next month, zouk out well should be going,

zilin's birthday,

one event at the art house, maybe attending,

x'mas party with the hotel gin gang,

x'mas dinner with SHATEC gin gang,

x'mas exchange gift session with gals friends,

attractions party next month also,

NYE, 3 places,

siloso beach party,

St James Power Station or

Cafe Del mar

i have received sms or email for all the above 3 places for the count down,

but i seriously don know which one to go.....

well we'll see how things goes than...

alright wouldn't go on and on ald,

see ya around ppl,

=p

updates!

2008-11-04T21:03:00.003+08:00

yes people,

i am back already hahah

in fact i had started work already lol,

just that very lazy to go and blog hahaha

pix will be posted up to Facebook and Friendster soon,

cos i don know where the hell,

i left the god damn cable for the cam!!! =(

should be some where around,

just need some searching hehehe

Macau is so nice man,

i am just in love with that country!!!

i promise next year Feb,

i'll go there again,

cos last trip was kinda of short eh,

can't clear all the places that i want to go,

next Feb i am planning to go for a week!!

hahaha

maybe sure i'll clear all the places that i want to clear hehe

alright that's all for now,

pix will be real soon alright,

i promise hehehe

c ya ppl.....

=)

flying off....

2008-10-29T01:55:00.002+08:00

time check,

0200hrs hahaha

well dad is coming and fetch me up at 0300hrs to the airport,

haiz susposed to meet him yesterday night and even the few days ago,

but than out time just don seem to match with each other......

i am sorry darling,

like i say when i come back from Macau alright?

i promise....... =) heheh

alright i got to go and shower first, followed by mask hehe

take care ppl,

don worry i'll be just fine alone and ill be back home in one piece also...

thanks for all e phone calls, Ade is the first one to call me,

she wished me happy birthday and have a safe trip,

hasri called me too well said the same thing hehe

liana, nurul and zilin sms me,

well what ever it is,

thank u very much ppl!!

alright alright really got to go hahah

c ya ppl!!

love u all!

fucker!! fucker!!

2008-10-19T19:55:00.003+08:00

some sickening mother fucker went to my facebook acc and post this comment up;

"Karen is wanting to fuck some hot guys right now...she's fuckin too horny.."

fucker idiot, if you have the ball/guts to do,

OWN UP, DON BE SUCH A COWARD!!

yes, i admit i am very pissed of when i saw that comment,

but than better than cos if that fucker wann to make me pissed,

come on, that's all you have??!!

give it all, boy

get a life boy (or who ever that fucker is)

u've got nothing else better to do ah??

i can suggested some suggestions to you through hahah

can time just go faster........

2008-10-19T16:01:00.003+08:00

can time just go faster ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

it just so slow, hahahaha

i wann to get MP3,

maybe this sun, my off day haha

=p

can time pass faster ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

can't sleep again....

2008-10-15T04:56:00.004+08:00

can't sleep again.......

been tossing and turning on the bed for a while,

just can't make my bloody eyes shut and sleep,

i also don know why,

the moment i close my eyes,

it seems like there a lot things coming to my mind,

be it work, what to follow up tomorrow,

the manpower for tomorrow,

even my nose bleed came to me, mind you,

than thought of Ruben also,

not that i miss him or what ever,

it just so randomly came into my mind,

hmmm i don know how to phrase it,

just a lot of things just suddenly came to my mind,

the moment i shut my eyes!!!

i hate it!!!

it've been going on for a few days already eh,

damn and later still on morning shift some more!!!

haiz, esther say i might be to stress up,

that why i can't fall asleep,

hmmm well maybe,

but come to think of it, there nothing right now that i'm stress about eh!!!

fuck it la, whatever it is,

i can't wait for 29 to come,

maybe i really need some time to relax,

some time alone........

i am seriously counting down.......

and i am kinda of getting sick and tired of going to work,

and that's surely is not a good sign!!

haiz,

I SERIOUSLY NEED A BREAK!!!!!

amazing!

2008-10-08T20:58:00.001+08:00

this is just amazing!!

just beautiful!!!

well at least for me hehhe

=p

can't go home! =(

2008-09-30T22:10:00.002+08:00

it raining cats and dogs now outside

and i am stuck in the bunker with Gautha and Alvin................

can't even go back man,

gosh,

was am today eh,

but than Merlion shortage of manpower,

eve of Hari Raya mah,

all the Malay staff all went back early,

so have to cover for Merlion cos only 2 from 3pm onwards eh,

very poor thing hahaha

anyway i have confirmed my macau trip!!!!

yeah!!!!

flight and hotel all confirmed!!!

although atfter paying for everything i only left wz one hundred plus,

haiz,

BUT it's ok, cos i know i this trip is all been paid with my own money,

own hard earn money hahaha

pretty pround of myself eh hahahaha

alright don go on ald,

i am supper tired,

tml working,

PH and i am only running wz 4...... plus me errhhh.......

Selmat Hari Raya hahahaha

=p

collecting tickets and confirmation!!

2008-09-29T12:22:00.003+08:00

just woke up!

hahah

cos just now some one call me in the morning,

i also can't recall who hahah

well thought of going back to slp,

off day eh, don wann to wake up so early mah,

but than can't go back to slp,

so forget it than,

so wake up lol go check emails and staff like that lol,

ooh ya,

i am getting my tickets and hotel confirmation today hahah

will be heading down to Chan Brother later to go and collect them!!

YEAH!!! hahahah

ooh well although from now till the trip is like

one more month to go, eerhhh

but than it's only a month hahaha

maybe by the time you realized it,

it already end of Oct ald hahahah

alright got to go and prepare to go out ald,

c ya

=p

it confirmed!!!

2008-09-26T21:05:00.003+08:00

yeah! yeah!

it confirmed!!

i just called Chan Brother this afternoon to enquiry about the price for the trip,

at first the quote me $674/- for flight and hotel,

but than the hotel they quote to me was East Asia Hotel,

at first i thought that was a usual/normal hotel

but when i go online and check onto the hotel,

it don look trustable eh hahaha well it does don look trustable to me hehe,

so to play safe i called back and ask them to change another hotel,

so they changed to Guia Hotel instead but than the price is higher though,

because of the hotel i guess......

they quote me $738/- ya it slightly higher but than FIT booking is like that one mah,

but than when i check the rate separately online,

it's more or less the same

hehehe~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

so they have book the hotel room for me already and

all i need to do is to go down on Monday to make payment for the whole thing

heheheh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

as for flight, i actually want Jet Star but than Jet Star depart from S'pore

at 1400hrs and i'll reach Macau at 1740hrs!!

ya, so half of the day will be gone already lol,

haiz, so no choice have to take Tiger Airways,

cos they have early morning flight at 0605hrs in the morning and i'll reach Macau like 0920hrs.....

hahahha~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ooh well in order not to waste the day away so i decided to take Tiger Airways,

i have checked with Syila and she say it so so eh

but she say it just a flight there,

don really matters la,

ya quite true la, get a cheap flight and can spend more over there hahahah

hehehe~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

that it, confirmed, sett ed!! hahaha

finally after so long,

Macau here i come!!!!

=p

=) & =(

2008-09-26T01:55:00.004+08:00

=( 1

off today,

but than supposed to go back for clap and cheer thingy,

but who know,

that sickening nose of my is giving me problems again!!

ya, it bleed again!!!

eerhhh i kind of get irradiated with my nose bleeding by now,

it not that i did not take my medication on time or what,

i DID take my medication on time eh,

what ever the doctor had asked me to do or not to do,

i have done it,

all of them,

BUT than the sickening bleeding just wouldn't stop!!

why??!!! eerhhhhh

fuck it!

i also don know what to do already so screw it man!

=( 2

a couple of things happened at work recently,

haiz well like what i expected the outcome after the talk and staff like that,

it's all within the expectation haiz ya sad to say,

but than the outcome was pretty much to what i expected

like i say if anyone wann to label me as a "fucker", "bitch" "back stabber"

go ahead by all means, cos i know what i am doing,

and i know for sure the bond that we used to have wouldn't be there anyone,

when there is a crack onto something,

be it friendship or relationship the crack will always be there

and i know the crack wouldn't be a minor one, ever since that topic is been brought up,

and so much so as i try not to bring it up when ever i could,

but than it still arisen up in the end and therefore i don have a choice but to

what you people call it back stab it? bitch about it?

any ways that you people want to put it la,

putting down a person moral and

putting down a person moral to work,

is the last thing that i had i mind back than,

now i finally understand why Kana asked me

to keep myself a certain distance away or don get very close with the crew is possible,

although i know i'll alway entertain him and say

"ya kana, noted, no worry!" and staff like that

but i know my action wasn't really following my words..........

i finally understand why kana ask me to do that,

cos i think he'll foresee such situation like this........

and how difficult it'll for me to break such things to them,

but can i be like how kana is? i don know, maybe i should really try haha

i admit i might not be the best IC that you guys had ever,

compare to Rahidah i know i'm not even one tenth of her everything,

but than i am really trying my best in what ever i can to accommodate to you guys,

what ever i can, i swear i really tired my best already.......

but that the result just don seem to be like what i expected or wann it to be like

i been through hell out of everything when i was first transfered there,

although anissa was there with me,

but i did not approach her, because i know she herself is still trying to adapt too,

all kind of faces that the crew were showing me when they saw me there on the first day,

those kinds of remarks made, intentionally or unintentionally

and one fucking phone call that i answer from bird cage on my

second day that almost make me burst out in tears,

after what the caller say to me after i say my normal greetings,

night works!! i really hate night works when i first came,

i hate it!! really!! and a lot of time i'm always thinking to myself,

why am i always the one doing pm when ever there's night works?!

i had to make my way through in dark to go and lock those fucking doors ALONE and make sure everything is up and running.

and thanks to all those past "trainings" that i am able to stay back for night works alone and was like almost numb to going in the dark to lock those door by now,

i don know if by coming this far is my achievements or what ever you wann to call it,

all i know is i am really trying my best to the IC that the crew had in mind,

but guess i was just to naive to think that it's a easy thing to do,

all i know it, i had tried my best, i swear.........

what ever it is, i had a clear conscience,

what ever i done on the past or even now, i did not

went against my conscience, as long as i can answer to myself at the end of the day,

that's it, i don need to answer to any one else out there, don need......

all i really hope things will get better after 2nd week of October onwards,

when everything and everyone starts everything afresh,

hope what ever the sups have in mind will carry out as per usual,

what ever it is, what happened had happened,

there's no turning back, just look forward and get things moving.............

if i ever did anything wrong, i will apologize,

but if i didn't.... screw the apologize!!!!

=)

was on msn wz jacab this afternoon,

haha that guy ah,

hmmm how to phrase it........

alright let put this this way,

he make me smile at the end of the chat cos

hmmmmmmm (still thinking of how to phrase it)

ok fine, don know how to phrase it la,

he's just cute la haha

well as long as i know what's going on will do hahaha

hehehe

darling, i never ask/demand you to explain things to me ah,

all i did was "ooh..." to myself when i saw the pix hahah

alright ppl got to get my ass to the bed already,

later on morning shift eerhhh

and pay is coming in tonight,

got to buy air ticket to Macau on 28 or 29 this month hehehe

so excited,

Macau here i come!!

=p

thinking.....

2008-09-21T20:46:00.003+08:00

off today,

by right yesterday is my off day,

but than Kana flight very late than landed so no choice lol have to cover his am IC yesterday..... =(

but than not so bad through cos i had today and tml off! hahahah

2 days off!!

lately there a couple of issues arising at work,

haiz, and there is this issue that is really urgent.......

what issue i don wann to say here as long as i know good enough

don need to go around spreading!

anyway will be going down to the island to have a long talk with Kana tml,

need to settle it once and for all,

talk to him and see what can we do and staff like that,

see either which one should we keep or what?

frankly speaking, to keep which one i believe me and Kana had already have the same person in mind,

even Syila and even anissa say the same thing when i talked to her last friday,

i am sorry i can't pleased every one, you can call me a fucker or a bitch at the end of the day,

but than i really wann the best for you,

cos you guys are just ruining each other future like that if this carry on!

like it or not, i am sorry i'm really going to make sure that one will be leaving,

i believe Kana'll do the same thing too,

haiz, ooh well what ever it is,

tml talk to kana first and see what he suggest and than we'll carry on from there than.

hmmmm, just as i though what had happened to zilin at fort wouldn't happened to my side, BUT than it just happened without even me knowing it! goodness.......

family dinner turn out to be funeral......

2008-09-15T01:02:00.004+08:00

today or rather yesterday was Mid-Autumn festival,

and by right every year my mum will either book a place at a restaurant for dinner

or went over to my grandma's place and have dinner,

it's like kinda of traditional already

yesterday by right we should have a nice wonderful dinner at my grandma's place,

i have already plan to rush down after my shift ends,

but than we did not manage to have the dinner,

and i really don think the following years we'll be having either

my youngest aunt (she wasn't my grandparent real daughter,she was adopted by my grandpa when she's 5) pass away yesterday's morning at SGH,

in her sleep,

she just go and left us like that,

so silently........

doctor told us her immune system just shut off like that,

and oxygen also just stopped flowing to her brain for 3 mins,

and that's why she just go like this........

so suddenly and so silently...............

she was only hospitalised for slight high fever 4 days ago,

and by right she was supposed to discharge yesterday.........

when grandma call mum this morning and told her that aunt had left us,

mum almost faint when she hang up the phone,

and i believe grandma was also crying quite terribly on the other line....

took a cab and rush down to SGH and i call Gautha that i am taking UL when i was on e cab

once reach SGH, doctors was already there inside my ward room to do a final check before they really pronounce her dead

and when Dr. Wee did the final and cruel confirmation to us,

my 2 poor grandparent burst out crying,

mum was crying too when she try to console them,

me? i though i am ok, only when i walk into aunt ward,

seeing her lying so motionless on her bed,

and i call her like how i normally does hopping her to respond to me,

did she didn't.......

and i just stood there crying while seeing her body

than my dad walk into the ward, console me

and ask me to help him make the funeral arrangements,

mum, grandma and my grand dad well think they still can't accept the fact that aunt is gone,

mum was all the while beside grandma cos she's afraid that she get to emotional causing her to heart attack,

grandpa was just inside the ward, talking to her until the nurse came to push aunt to the mortuary till the undertaker had arrive

he keep talking to her staff like, how could you left us like that, why, and he told aunt to be afraid he'll be here with her all this while,

my heart really sank when i saw what grandpa was doing,

the images was still in my mind now.....

undertaker came at abt 10 plus and we went straight to Singapore Casket funeral parlours,

than from there the undertaker will assist us in all the funeral arrangements

by 1pm, aunt was already resting in the coffin with her make up on,

we had a short funeral service at the parlours,

before we sent aunt off to Mandai crematorium for cremation.......

both grandparent and mum did not follow us,

only me, my 2 bro and dad sent aunt off for her last journey.......

it's pretty pathetic i know but grandma and grandpa don wann to make a big fuss over the funeral,

they say they wann a simple one, so therefore we just go according to their wish than,

4.30 was the cremation and we have to collect her ashes tomorrow morning and place it at a temple,

had a long day today, was rushing every where, from hospital to grandma's place, to funeral parlours, to Mandai than to grandma's place again

cried a lot today, mum too, grandma too i think everyone too,

i really don know how to console mum or grandma, i really don

mum was finally asleep after a long day today.......

because i told mum juts now,

just take it as aunt have went travelling,

and she will meet you and us one day one a destination where there no pain and sorrow,

and there we'll really had each other company forever......

think that make her feel better and she smile but there's still tears in her eyes

ooh well cos that what i have been telling myself when ever i attend a funeral,

maybe to make myself feel better ba.....

cos i really believe i will meet those who pass on before me in a destination in the end.........

so ppl, if i happened to pass on before you,

don worry, we'll still meet up at the end of the day..........

rest in peace aunt...

i can't slp eh.......

i very very tired, but the eyes just can't close...........

many things in life....

2008-09-13T02:35:00.002+08:00

MANY THINGS IN LIFE.

WEATHER A THING THAT IS WORTH DOING OR NOT,

REALLY DEPEND ON HOW YOU WORK AT IT,

TAKE UP YOUR CORAGE AND

DO SOMETHING YOUR HEART TELL YOU TO DO,

SO THAT YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT,

LATER IN YOUR LIFE.......

well couldn't slp again so went on the net,

than who know just happen to click onto this page and saw those above saying,

think it's pretty true and meaningful so decided to post them up lol, heheh

oh gosh 2 plus, better go and catch some slp

later still morning shift lei =(

good night ppl

=p

ba ba black sheep, have u any wool hahahahh

2008-09-07T05:19:00.003+08:00

ya another sleepless night again, eerhh....

haiz , been tossing and turning around on bed for about an hour

but the bloody eyes of mine just don seem to feel heavy,

and i was wide awake too man, eerhh

now get off the bed at 2 plus,

went online, went to youtube to watch some real silly video,

hahaha ooh well, what to do,

can't expect me to go and sms people in the middle of the night

and demand them to entertain me right?

so that the only choice i have lol heheh

liana just sms me, saying she can't make it to work,

she is coughing out blood again,

goodness this gal ah better go and see a doc k?

ooh ya, the previous night had a drinking session after work,

and i really don remember getting drunk eh,

until next day i saw Esther's sms asking me and i OK and staff like these,

of course i reply yes i am fine ah,

than she reply me back and say i sent a lot of silly, stupid sms the previous night

to a lot of my friends!!

goodness, i swear i really don know i did that!!

really, i also don know until Esther told me that i actually send an sms to Ken(Esther's husband!) "hei baby, sleep already"!!!!!

gosh, lucky Esther know what's going on,

if not i think i am so dead man hahaah

eerrhhh i swear i really don know i did sent the sms out,

and i bet not only to Ken, who knows i might have sent those silly sms

to all my contracts in my phone!!!

gosh, i really apologise for those who have received those nonsense sms from me,

i am so so sorry,

i really don mean it!!!

Sorry darlings.........

ooh well just take it as i was really dead drunk that night than hahahahah

alright, got to go and prepare to go work already.....

c ya

PS: DID YOU HEARD MIME SILENT SCREAM WITHIN ME? STOP SENDING ME CHAINED SMS AND EMAIL!!! IT'S REALLY FUCKING IRRITATING!! GET A LIFE, MOVE ON!! I WOULD NOT ALLOW YOU TO COME AND MESS UP MY LIFE AGAIN!! NEVER!!!! I REALLY DON WANN TO LABEL YOU AS A FUCKER IN MY LIST, SO PLS DON MAKE ME DO THAT...........

sickening tired now!

2008-09-05T19:58:00.002+08:00

damn freaking sickening tired now!!

was morning shift today,

than now still at the bloody bunkers!!

haiz, closing only have nurul so have to stay and do closing,

the.......

but also used to it already through,

i think maybe it because of all these staying back thingy make me

feel so god damn tired lol hahahah

anyway, going back soon,

waiting for bas to get her monthly report done and send out,

than maybe go out for dinner,

no plans yet, although i am off for tml lol hahah

haiz what to do,

it also like that hahah

alright go change first,

update later i hope

and i am seriously counting down to my Macau trip,

although it like end of October,

which is like almost 2 more months??!! hahaha

don care,

think that the only motivation that will be pushing me to work now hahaha

well well look like have to get more motivations to keep me going huh? haha

so where's the next country than?

hmmmm have to go and plan for the next holiday already hahaha

c ya

=p

ooh gosh, mood swing again......

2008-08-31T19:29:00.003+08:00

gosh!! mood swing today again..... =(

ya don ask me why eerh

i also don know,

just not in the right mood to do anything today,

just can't get the mood eh

eerhh

i don like it!!

so sickening, so sucky to have mood swings because i don know the reason why i am like that!

damn pathetic la eerh,

haiz some one help me,

help this pathetic and sickening silly idiot here......

I HATE MOOD SWINGS!!!
I HATE GETTING INTO BAD MOOD FOR NO REASON!!
I HATE EVERYTHING OF ME TODAY!!
I HATE THAT SICKENING ME NOW!!]
EERH...........

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memories, only memories

2008-08-28T03:49:00.002+08:00

Memories~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Like the corners of my mind

Misty watercolor memories

Of the way we were

Scattered pictures

Of the smiles we left behind

Smiles we gave to one another

For the way we were

Can it be that it was all so simple then

Or has time rewritten every line

If we had the chance to do it all again

Tell me would we? could we?

Memories~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

May be beautiful and yet

Whats too painful to remember

We simply choose to forget

So it is the laughter

We will remember

Whenever we remember

The way we were

So it is the laughter

We will remember

Whenever we remember

The way we were

night works

2008-08-25T21:06:00.003+08:00

having night works now,

Tech 9 and Tech 11 was doing some touch up to the figurines,

and me since i can't be of any help to them,

i just stay inside the the room and wait for them to finish the works lol,

om the mean time, have to make the 2 men coffee,

cos they'll come up once a while to take a smoke break or drink coffee,

and since i am around, so i'll have to take the "chamber maid" position lol hahahah

but ok la, make coffee only mah, not that bad la hahaha

i am so tired, i wann my off day eerhh

and know what, i am having bloody Mary now,

and it not as painful as the previous month la hahah

i like.....

but the flow was non stop la

even if i am sitting down now,

i can feel it leaking,

what more than standing and walking! hahah

one more day, one more bloody day tml and i am off hahahah

ooh ya pay comes in must book tickets to Macau already,

plan already, this month book flight tickets,

next month book hotel,

Oct's pay's for expense,

settled!!

than off i go to Macau hahahha

so excited la,

ooh ya, i am going alone heheheh,

well don know la, just wann to go alone oversea hahah

and i also sick and tired of asking ppl to go along with me,

all kinds of resons like too last min la, no money la bah bah bah

so fuck it, hahahah don need to entertain them already

if nothing goes wrong should be flying off on 27-Oct than maybe come back on 1-Nov ba heheh

ya, spending my birthday alone oversea, how cool la hahahah

well well got to rush the 2 men already, promise to get job done at 9pm,

now it 20 plus nine already la,

still not done yet, and Duty Sup is calling and rushing me already la!

got to go, update later if i have the time and mood as usual hahaha

=p

well i plan to ask him to go along with me to Macau, well even if he is not going, i'll still go alone, the trip is still on, by hook or by crock hahahah

c ya

=p