Wednesday, January 23, 2008
give me another wk
i been telling myself lately,
"give yourself another more wk, than go n test again.... if really is a + than go for the decision that u have ald had in mind...."
well ya think that the only out lol, although i seriously hope that it'll be a false alarm but such thing are just not within my control mah....
been trying to act as per normal @ wk, trying to make ppl think that i am fine, well i am fine mah...... am i not???
well don know la, still don have a proper chance to talk to him yet although i ald know for sure what his respond will be like.... so i really wonder, does it really help if i told him anything?? does it help??
eerhhhhhh, gosh goodness.......
i don like this fucking way of me la, hate this way of living.........
hate to have e thoughts of "am i?? am i not??" "should he know anot?" "should i tell him"
god damn i just hate this........
had been through all the above once is enough ald............
i really can't afford to go through another time, neither do i can take it to go through another round...... i can't.......
Bernadette Karen remembered on 01:19.
