Saturday, August 23, 2008
i lost.......
i lost alright,
i really admit defeat to you,
it's all over..............
ALL OVER...................
nothing much left for me to stay onto,
nothing worth me holding on to any more too,
u say it right in front of me,
yes u said it!
so fucking hurting and painful..........
although the result was what i expected,
but it JUST SO FUCKING PAINING AND HURTING to accept it...........
it's is, ruben.............
I never expected such things will happened to us, really nv expected............
and the impact that hit us or sorry
the impact that hit me was so huge and painful that i had nv felt like this before....
haiz, pretty ashamed to say that we have been dragging so almost a year yet i can't throw u out of my life,
but now after today, I SWEAR you will be gone,
totally, completely gone,
no more misses, no more of u in my mind,
no more comparing you with other guys,
no more of EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE,
COS U DON WORTH A SHIT OF ME DOING ALL THAT,
YES U DON WORTH A SHIT!!!!!!
i can't believe i was actually so in love with a fucking JERK!!!
so be it, what ever done is done
what ever hurt you caused to me will still be there no matter what you do,
the pain will still be there no matter what
maybe as the time goes by,
the pain will get lesser and lesser....... i hope it will
because i really don wann myself to feed on pain and only pain in life,
cos i know it not worth it, PLUS U'RE THE BLOODY REASON for all the pains that i have to go through,
IT JUST NOT WORTH IT........
u're making to have doubts with all the ppl around me now,
to have doubts if i really should trust them as much as how i trust you in the past,
can i??
well, I STILL WANN TO
even if at the end of the day, they betray my trust like what you did,
well I ASKED FOR IT than,
but that me,
typically me......
i suppose..............
ladies, bear this in mind,
THE ONLY GUY THAT ARE WORTH YOUR TEARS,
ARE THE ONE THAT WOULDN'T MAKE YOU CRY...........
i finally know what that mean after paying an expensive lesson, hahah
so ladies just like a little note u gals heheh
Bernadette Karen remembered on 00:41.
