Wednesday, June 03, 2009
i am back!
gosh i just realised my last updates was 12 April!!
more than a month man......
hmmmm well for the past month mah, well how to say.....
well like taking a mild roster coaster ride a bit of up and down oh well what's new,
don know la, really feel like shit lately
quite handful of things happened,
the load/responsibility/duties on my shoulder seems to get heavier and heavier,
sometimes really find it hard to "breath",
seems to be like gasping for "air" most of the time,
work wise, well to be frank my morale is kinda of damn low now,
don ask me why,
just don feel like going to work, i have been dragging my ass off to work lately,
and i know that is definitely is not a good sign......
in my previous work places, once i am dragging my ass to work,
i will prepare my resignation letter already, than i just tender......
but here, i really don know,
i guess is the environment/people that is holding me back,
maybe i guess......
don know la, guess when it the time to move on,
we or i have to move on,
so i think i am just waiting for the right time to move on?
i really feel like dumping all those freaking, horrible, bloody, sickening nonsense
behind my back and just walk off like that,
i am so sick of seeing, hearing, facing, handling them every now and than
screwed everything/everyone!!
i just wann to be myself from now,
please don come and tell me i have been quiet or what ever,
i can't possible be noisy all along, i need a break too!
and those who have gave me advise or talk me,
trust me i absorb all of our conversation in,
all into my mind and heart, really people..... =)
i wann to go holiday! so badly...... =(
guess should be going during Auguest or September
i am thinking of going to Venice, Italy or maybe Rome,
but that i IL Divo is to have their world tour concert at Aust....
so i really don know where to go now haha
well let see how's budget is like first hahah
and yes i have not started saving a shit yet!
BUT no matter what i am so going to make sure that i am out of this
sickening horrible place by than haiz
meeting jess, yvonne and the gals on this sat.....
guess that the only thing i am looking forward to for this week than,
pathetic eh haiz
off 2 days, yesterday and today,
yesterday whole day rot at home never really went out or whatever,
today mah, well i went to watch "Angels and Demons" alone at Jurong Point at 2pm
that movie was damn nice, really i really don mind watching it again!
well i plan was after the movie go to coffee bean or what ever and
go through my guided tour script BUT.....
than after that go roam around Jurong Point as i haven't been
doing that for a while, hehe
brought a tube dress at This Fashion,
a pair of heel at Shawn, the original price was $110 but i get it at $32.90! good buy huh haha
than some junk things and i spent like almost 100 bucks! haha
ooh well that why i said don leave me alone at shopping centre hahah
and ya i did not even touch my script la it was all along in my bag!
haiz i really don know how to pass like that la,
can i just don take it? can i? our dearest sups?? haha
forget it as if they will allow lei??!!!
alright got to go, tomorrow still got to work haiz back to work again....
oh ya, Reben is back to Singapore already and guess he will be staying put
this time round, what ever it is i am cool with it,
cos i know all those dramn wouldn't happened again.
see ya folks good night!
Bernadette Karen remembered on 22:39.
