I hate it when the silence that drove us apart
Can i act like you don't exist at all????
I know i can't and
It's you I can't resist either
But all the fun we had were still fresh printed onto my mind till now
Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad
I think about your face, laughing about a joke and my pain grows more and more,
When I think about how my heart broke
You still make me feel so confused
I'm so confused and I never know what you want from me
My heart is all bruised since we have soemthing on together
I feel like I can never be free from you, never can i
I still remember when we first met
You was so special to me, the sparks is just there and we just started off like that
Now I feel so sad I couldn't make you happy, i hate myself for can't sharing your load, for can't be he first one to be there when you need/want me there
But neither can you do all the above too,
But I remember all the fun we had since we met each other
Every time I think about it, it just torn me apart
I still remember the look that you gave me when we first met,
It was just so sweet,
But my pain grows more and more when i think of that
When I think about how my heart broke
You said you knew how much I felt for you, and you felt the same way too
But you said you couldn't chose for me and you don know what you want
Our love couldn't be true at all
It seemed if you were happy.
Now you act so attached
You dare not to look in my eyes
I thought we matched
But I my dream dies
I have cried enough for u and i am sick and tired of crying now too,
I am really scared that this will not lead us to any where, and it almost end of the year,
Will what you told me really come ture??
Will you really be going overseas for good??
You haven't told me your answer yet.
And your birthday is coming too,
I seriously don know what am i susposed to do,
Celebrated with you? as what???
I really don know,
This thought have been coming to me lately,
Were we be better off, if we never met in the first place??
Were we be better off, if we did not exchange our numbers in the first place??
Were we?? Sometimes i really think yes we will,
Maybe for me if you don think so,
Maybe at the very least i wouldn't be so miserable now,
But will you??
Well all i know it i really tired of everything now, really tiring,
Looks like i will divert my attention from you to some where else bit by bit, maybe onto work wise maybe to make me feels better
Because paying or giving my attention to work is much more easier than i paid attentaion to you
Maybe one day when i realized that i don really pay much attention to you,
Mean we or i'm really getting over and done with this messy and confused relationship,
What do you think???
Well i don think you have a choice too,
Because from that day that i'm transferd to IOS, it have ald been my top piorty ald.......
Karen
